this is a difficult post to write, I have really mixed feelings – but , my blog is my place where I can work these feelings out. So here goes….
I started playing duplicate Bridge with a woman who fast became my special person (G). We took classes together, learned together, played together, shared life stories. We developed a very strong bond. And everyone knew of our partnership. It was fun to win with her, and we commiserated together when we lost. We spent hours working through hands together.
During this pandemic, another woman who had been my partner’s friend for many years, needed a new partner. Slowly I watched G start playing with her on days that we were not playing. THey became very very good together. To the point where they were usually winning every game that they played together. Of course they were happy and wanted to play more together to optimize their new partnership.
Many times I get notices about how well they’ve done together, and see congratulation notes about them. I’m on the sidelines – wishing them well, but feeling dejected. I am happy for G, yet very sad to lose our bond that we had for a number of years. It is bittersweet. G and I still play a couple of games together, but it’s not the same. I have lost my special person , my ‘partner in crime’. I miss Our connection.
Working it through.