Soundtrack of My Life

here’s the start…

Darkness Darkness

Both Sides Now

I Won’t Back Down

Touch of Grey

The Dance

Freedom

Everybody knows this is Nowhere

100 years

When you walk through a storm
Hold your head up high
And don’t be afraid of the dark
At the end of a storm
There’s a golden sky
And the sweet silver song of a lark
Walk on through the wind
Walk on through the rain
For your dreams be tossed and blown
Walk on, walk on
With hope in your heart
And you’ll never walk alone
You’ll never walk alone
Walk on, walk on
With hope in your heart
And you’ll never walk alone
You’ll never walk alone
Songwriters: Oscar Hammerstein II / Richard Rodgers

Alternate Reality

Reading and binge watching.

In an instant so much can change. Now, how to deal with this trauma .  I will have a New Normal.

Traumatic experiences often involve a threat to life or safety, but any situation
that leaves you feeling overwhelmed and isolated can result in trauma, even if it
doesn’t involve physical harm. It’s not the objective circumstances that determine
whether an event is traumatic, but your subjective emotional experience of the
event. The more frightened and helpless you feel, the more likely you are to be
traumatized.

Numerous books on Alternate Realities….. Quantum Physics:

Book of 2 Ways, Wish You Were Here, With or Without You, Midnight Library

 

A very Dark and Rocky start

Moved out to Grand Junction. The first 2 weeks were great. I fell in love with my new home.

Then catastrophe happened. I fell out of our moving truck. Broke my femur. A nightmare began.  If only I could recall those 5 minutes of careless thinking.

Hospital – dark dark dark.  Recovering now for 2 + months. Still no weight on my leg.  Trying to build bone. Hopefully I will be able to start the long process of recovery soon. My dreams have been dashed. My emotions are out of control. I find myself in deep despair most days. Wondering what if, what will my next day(s) look like?  Will I ever be whole again?

I am an invalid.

Dark, depressed. Despair.